Sorry

I'm sorry these posts have been so delayed... I've been rather busy. But I feel like writing now, so I will write. xD

Dereliction

July 01, 2009 - You Know Who You Are And Why.

Not dereliction bestowed upon me...
But dereliction that I bestowed upon another.

I feel as if I've failed.
Guilty, in a sense.
Although my heart yearns to feel unruly exuberance, I feel obliged to feel otherwise.
A selecting obligation. VERY selecting.
Yet still the emotion.

I can't help laugh to myself, as I anticipate the one I dreaded would read and comprehend this would indeed fulfill my consternation.
If the one is... I cannot possibly explain how sorry I am.
Not for my writing - for the events you've overcome. And are overcoming.
I'm left speechless.


But I want you to know... When you feel pain, I do aswell.
It troubles me in the night, creeping into my thoughts and dreams. Even possessing(lol) my unconsiousness.
I will remain heavyhearted, until you genuinly smile again.